Tuesday, July 24, 2007

my leave came to an unexpected halt yesterday as there was an emergency in camp. one of our servicewoman died in a motorcycle accident and preparations had to be made for the funeral the next day (today). my condolences to the family of the deceased. it was such a very tragic and dramatic accident as she will be getting married this weekend.

meanwhile the tension between me and him is getting stronger. i wonder who will be strong enough to win this foolish game.

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Sunday, July 22, 2007

it's been kind of rainy these days... my flu has been becoming worst but i think i have it contained. finished guard duty yesterday morning... then took a short nap and off to PS. me fren wanted to buy a guestbook for his birthday bash next sat. i don't know if i can attend or not... i would if i could. went to say hello to me cousin @ gv there. she seemed busy... shouldn't have kacau her but she smiled at me ... keke... then off to orchard... got to stop by Tangs and buy something cos i have brought my vouchers with me. after browsing through the mens' section, i finally bought a nike shirt which kinda look...

today, nothing much has happened. just wanted to sit back and recover at home. luckily had my new and old set of anime to entertain me all along. i dunno why i feel kinda feeble and fall asleep easily. i felt kinda weak; vulnerable. maybe due to some events that had made me mentally distraught and that in turn, psychosomatically, affect me somehow physically.

a lot have people have taken me for granted - my colleagues and my closest & loved ones.. i honestly can dismiss some of them but not all. this shit have taken a toll on me. makes me stress and highly pressured. they always give that mentality; that when i'm around... they can relax because i will see that everything should be going on as it is... where's the responsibility ppl? i'm always been made the scapegoat. of coz i won't seem to mind; but in some cases, people have to be serious and brave enough to face the music and be accountable for. now, my tolerance level is close to Zero, don't be surprise if i'm acting like an asshole most of the time...

it's only a matter of time... when i...

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Thursday, July 19, 2007

oh shit... i'm succumbing to the flu. how convenient to have it during my block leave. went to play golf at noon with K and the family. i think it was at mandai. boy' it sure was not easy swing the diff types of clubs. the pros on tv make it look easy. my hands were sore and my back's aching. it was a pleasant training. have lunch @ prata place. then back to home, resting.

it's been quite a while that i've missed to have someone on the bed <<< bankai!

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Saturday, July 14, 2007

woke up so fucking early this morning... 0830?!! knnccb la. the upgrading work is bloody noisy with the constructions. then meet them @ tm pizza hut for lunch. service was unusually bad today. me friend go and ask 4 a feedback form and wrote an essay on it. hmmm... overall the new cheesy pizza was quite tasty.

then went to watch watch HP5 @ 1300. movie was good. of course it was predictable but still nice to watch. ending - kinda abrupt. after that went to metro for a while... heard that there is a closing down sale with almost 70% off storewide. it was so bloody crowded there and i cannot tahan it. then i suggest we just go orchard since i need to fulfill some obligations there... lol

it's been 3 night straight i went there. finally, i bought a new pair of shoe and a belt. went to try the fried mars bar... it was okay... but everyone have to try it once. also had to collect a pair of jeans for a friend @ far east. haiz... so tired walking around... and so dehydrated, my head so dizzy.

well, it's a Sunday tmr... don't wish to go anywhere... just stay home and recuperate and regain all my energy i've unnecessarily wasted earlier this week. nitez!

ps: hope for a speedy recovery, grandpa.

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Friday, July 13, 2007

finally after 8 boring but fruitful days, i've completed my course and got the cert for it. as some may know i'm a very superstitious person... so i'm very jumpy and merticulous in this type of days. ok, i know i'm crazy.

went back camp to throw all my stuff for a while... then decided to catch a movie @ the cathay with my confidant. when we reach there the movie ( the blossoming ... ) had already fucking sold out... so nevermind just hang around and go shopping.

went to eat swenson @ PS [2030]>> was fucking hungry and thirsty... haven't eaten anything yet since [eleven]... after that walk around orchard and found ourselves in topman & i find myself buying this super white 'thin' jeans (oops..)

i guess i need to save more than to shop... but i feel i desperately have the desire to do it somehow for a certain rationale. Until i achieve a certain purpose, i would gladly turn over a new leaf..(maybe not so soon) ....

sharks~ got to sleep soon... need to meet them for lunch before watching HP5 @ GV Tamp.

ps: to take the forbidden step, is this something that i might regret?

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Thursday, July 12, 2007

another so-so lecture today. took a cab home at the end of the day.
meet someone up later @ Orchard. went to mainly far east to shop for some shoes and jeans... just couldn't find the right one. i don't want to buy on desperation.... so may continue tmr... haiz last day of course tmr! so sad... no more slack life already...

4 days more to back to reality.

ps: shit' i'm almost reaching to my limit. i don't want to achieve a bankai' mode. i don't want to do something i will or might regret.
how can i trust someone i don't really trust. when all my senses fails me...

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

You know wat?
Now's the time i should reflect upon myself.

Frankly speaking, i perceive myself to be very contradicting. every fucking sentence i say or actions i do or did doesn't make sense. It's neither here nor there. it's paradoxical. that's what i am.

It frustrates alot of people when i talk so fast and they could not capture what i really had said; And when i repeat again, i tend not to finish the bloody sentence. that type of idiosyncrasy usually occurs when i try to convey my message from the bottom of my heart. In other words, words that i really meant, whether it's good or bad. So, you must be highly attentive to listen what i really had to say, only once.

Next, i'm generally very good-natured in general despite the vulgarism. People often take this as a sign of weakness and try to 'makan/eat' or take advantage of me. When they does that, i will gladly comply with a poker face but in my heart i can't take it. Even though the frustration or detest i felt can be 5 cent/10 cent (usually i dismissed it), it somehow can be snowballed to a very precariously dangerous level - my limit. i can honestly tell that i don't where's my limit but i can say i have endured quite a number of fucking nonsense from people.

Having said that, the most contributing factor that annoys me where people don't reciprocate. Whenever i felt that my actions were bonafide, and they don't seem to care at all. Enough said. I don't want to waste my time on people who are really making me a cuckoo or don't appreciate what i did at all. Where's the respect i deserve? I'm not being demanding; I just want some basic courtesy i deserve, no matter how small it can be.

Bottomline. How much can my heart takes before it tears asunder?

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Tuesday, July 10, 2007

class ended a bit earlier than expected, so i think maybe tonight i gonna have a coffee with K @ the airport. met her at T2 Starbucks. the ambience there was freaking nice and more quiet - just the right type of atmosphere to talk cock. her friend joined us later... a lot of catching up to do... so we hehe haha here and there for about 2hrs.

i had quite an enjoyable time,. the timing, place & people quite damn right immaculate. should have done this more often. i feel so calm and relaxed with them - just the thing i needed. it was almost 2200 then... so we fucked off from there and thank you so much for fetching me to my house.. so so much appreciated and see you ppl this sat~

Entry closed at 22:21 by riley-sama

Monday, July 09, 2007

i hadn't had enough sleep for the past few days... my body is totally lethargic and i can barely think straight anymore. my level of alertness and consciousness have deteriorated.

congrats to the king of grass, federer, for his 5th consecutive wimbledon title. best match ever between no1. & no.2

went vivo ytd to meet my old poly frens. drop them a very big bombshell i think... although i left earlier than expected... i had no choice but had to entertain the bombshell. ate secret recipe and breeks on that very same day... i felt i ate too much and decide to eat less today.

lectures were boring as usual; keep dozing off the whole time. usually i can tahan but this time i succumb to the 'Z' monster. and also gossips were heard here and there about me and my confidant has been on my defense. thanks so much... i don't really give in to those fuckers that much but sometimes it sank right in me.

They can say anything they want to say
Try to bring me down
But I will not allow
Anyone to succeed
Hanging clouds over me
And they can try how to make me feel
That I don't matter at all
But I refuse to fall
Doing what I believe
Or lose faith in my dreams

Entry closed at 21:47 by riley-sama

Thursday, July 05, 2007

WHY? why must everytime last minute got something always cropped up. i thought i could have really really nice long weekend but had guard duty on saturday! what fucking rubbish is this... i'm on course now and fucking hell give me and him on a bloody saturday... perangai macam sundal lah... mother ch**b** // SO FUCKING FRUSTRATED.

but i'm not going to let this get over me... at least i have some companion. now, have to shift my saturday plans to sunday... very the sundal...

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finally... i'm away from camp for quite a while. now it's just the normal 8-5 weekday thingy. i thought i may need to sleep at my cousins' house but luckily or so... manage to have a friend to drive us there... so no hassle there.

and i'm able to watch wimbledon every night now... so excited to go home everyday... i hope this week days will pass by as it is.. i don't want any last minute thingys cause i will get a fucking headache rectifying things then.

a lot of my friends complained to me that i've been too vulgar than usual. i don't really mean it. it's just a language for me. but really i hope i can cut down on it, so more ppl will like me in the future.. XDXD

ps: this love has taken its toll on me...

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Sunday, July 01, 2007

i only catch about 5.5 hours of sleep today... body still a bit fresh... went to parkway with my cousin; long time no see her; working so hard hard... we saw LJS there!!! i was awestruck as our favourite fast-food which had disappear from our parkway since sec sch is really back... replacing the gelare stall. now i can have one more extra choice to choose from.

and finally, it has been confirmed. my old pal from australia is back. now, i must gather all 5 of us to meet again and share, catch up, to our pathetic lives'. there's a lot to be said and too little time. i hope we can spend the time together more wisely yet meaningful.

ps: 40 years of NS!

Entry closed at 19:46 by riley-sama

i'm back to my old poly self again. been spending, shopping and dining in the high end. money come and money go... this has to stop! but somehow i haven't feel restraint yet. it's only the beginning. still far away to the end.

went out on a usual date with junichi-san @ bugis yesterday night... i was waitng at the taxi stand there and bloody hell i saw my aniki and his fiance. fuck. luckily i was alone at the moment... i was very cheeky into introducing myself...hehe... well well... so this is my future sis-in-law. she was very nice and smiley. our first time meeting each other;& on aniki's 24th birthday. then came junichi (late as usual again; i hate latecomers!) don't want to spoil the mood there... so i dismissed it.

went to seiyu there, topman. bought a couple of shirts from there then went to levi's for a while... when a black shirt just caught my eye, & immediately bought it. that's how i works. no need to see see touch touch wear wear here and there...(luckily it fitsme when i wore it at home). after that, head to PS... went to dinner there.. someone was very grumpy for whatever fuck.. thought wan to watch movie there but decide to watch it at cathay.

we arrived there to see the throng in queue fortransformers @ 0030 and 0130... fucking hell all almost sold out.. & it's only about 2300.. so took the 0230 one...;;; now to kill time. play arcade and pool @ park lane... as usual the typical ppl are usually there. then fucking hell saw my buddy from camp with his friends there too... we hehe haha here and there.

i didn't know he can play virtua striker 3 so well.. maybe just lucky i guess... even though won 2 times in a row. after all the time wasting, head back to the cinema. bought some ben&jerry's (my first time eating ice cream in a movie though)... overall movie was only an okay(surprisingly);

it was about 5 am then. were too sleepy then. walk walk to smu there, saw 7-11, bought a milo to quench our thirst. finally, we went separate ways ( part with a k ) took separate taxis... i was surprised my fare was below $10 considering the +50%... and zzzz @ 0600.. -fin

ps: happy 24th bday aniki

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